Why am i sad? Haha. What a qn. What am i to do when i trained so hard for a yr for nth? Smile? lol. All my efforts.. gone. If i had a healthy hand and i bowled badly, i only have myself to blame. But now.. i feel really.. bu fu qi.

And u didnt believe me at all. U threw me a "it's juz ur mental" and left me alone to struggle. By the 5th, 6th game, it hurts to even put my finger in. luckily uncle rick bandaged my finger half way thru. or it would probably be worse now.

to think i even.. how embarrassing.

"why shld u be sad? if u're really injured then it's not ur fault. unless u faked it." u dun understand at all. i would love to think that i faked it as well. that im not injured at all. that i can release my ball properly. i.. i dunno. suddenly.. everything doesnt matter anymore. i'm just really disappointed. but in what? i do not know. myself for getting the injury? haha..

now all i can do is to believe in my teammates. that they can do it. i bowled too badly to come back alr. it's up to everyone of them now.

and i have to say sry to yk. i believe u were quite affected by me. and i pangseh u as doubles partner. really sry.